and
I was just
considering
how I used to notice things
how part of my route to being sober
and learning to pay attention to myself
and where I was
involved daily running gratitude in a permanent and in a shared form
this was an excellent suggestion, at the time, for me because I had no reasonable boundaries
I was wondering
all of yesterday
and all of the night
if I might try this tool again
I wondered if it was about noticing for me
or perhaps, again, perception
noticing what is really present
noticing what I really feel
when any thing occurs (or does not occur)
An answer to part of this came yesterday in a mother’s post that involved the words denial, that involved the word reframing and that discussed the issues around both things. I am of late feeling like an escapist, even when smiling for a small moment that I was able to be pleased by such a small thing, in the middle of life as it is life-ing in a moment.
“Gratitude is an ambiguous term. Does it mean thankfulness for what we have? But as opposed to if we did not have what we have? And what do we have for which to….”
Then, this morning, came this post from Hermit’s Thatch, entitled Gratitude
Noticing Nature 
Reblogged this on Elisa's Spot.
I’ve done gratitude practices before and then sometimes don’t notice for a while. Or at least don’t consciously voice it in the same way. Somewhere I read–oh, no, can’t remember the entire context–but it’s about a continuum. And how gratitude helps us balance out when we get in the doldrums. At other times it’s more naturally there as part of who we are. Or something like that.
His article really gives another perspective. It’s more about listing entitlements. Things we are good enough for (and then when we don’t’ have, must somehow be suffering or less than for. I am not sure yet how I quite feel about it, but I can notice my insides going..hmm…well, yeah, yeah, yeah and then questioning what I do with it, or don’t do with it. Enjoy your dinner and company! Sometimes I am finding that I want to staple things down(I typed stople–yes stop them from happening!) I want simple consistent cause I can’t take any more! When do I get to stomp down my foot and say…get thee away from me I can do or be as I wish if only it werent’ for you. oh myyyy 😀
I think I had better go back a step to noting electric green grass and nesting thyme! That is a more comfortable speed!
This came on the heels of the current learning curve (does a curve have heels?)
I am not endorsing the view of the video, just considering the message, it’s INPUT!
Thanks Resonant Enigma for posting it. It took me until today to finally click on the video. I am glad that I did and I am glad that I waited until the nudge to do so, today.